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40 Days of Prayer: Day 37

Today’s blog was written by Jennifer Johnson.

Have you ever looked at your life or circumstances and thought, “Wow, I didn’t deserve that.”  Good or bad.  I didn’t deserve that reaction for something so minor or I didn’t deserve to be treated so good after treating them so badly.  Well I have felt that way more than once in my life.

Ryan and I met as teenagers and became friends.  Months later our friendship turned into something else.  We were I guess somewhat smitten.  We began dating in the fall of 1997.  It didn’t take long at all for me to realize that he was THE ONE for me.  We had fun together, laughed together and just liked being together.  (We still do by the way.)

We dated for a couple years and temptation truly overtook us both.  In the early fall of 2000 we found out that we were going to become parents.  At age 19 and 20 neither of us knew exactly what we were going to do but we loved each other and we loved the baby we created.  I cannot explain how awful I felt for disappointing God and compromising my morals.

We decided to tell our parents separately.  That way his parents could yell at him and my parents could yell at me.  That way, neither one of us would be killed.  (Who could kill their own flesh and blood?)  When I sat down to let my parents know that we would be having a baby, the words “I’m pregnant” just wouldn’t come out of my mouth.  When the words finally escaped my lips in a whisper the response I received was not like I had imagined.  My daddy looked at me with pain in his face and said, “We know sweetheart.”  He got up from his seat and came to where I was sitting, and lovingly placed his arms around me as though I had just told him that I was going to give him a grandchild, not I’m pregnant.  I DID NOT deserve this.  What I had done was wrong and yet he still loved me just the same.  He did not condone my actions, but he was there to help me through it.

On January 12, 2001 I married  the man that God made just for me and in May He blessed us both with a gift that we DID NOT deserve.  Madison Taylor was wrapped in a blanket, placed in my arms, and became one of my FAVORITES.

As we approach Christmas Day I urge you to remember that precious gift that was given to ALL of us and placed in a manger.  He is the Underserved Gift given to each of us and he is also the daddy standing there waiting to give you a hug and help you through whatever circumstance you are facing.

“…Behold I bring you good news that will cause great joy for ALL people. 11 Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is the Messiah, the Lord.

—Luke 2:10-11

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