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40 Days of Prayer: Day 26

Repentance. It’s a big ugly word. If I am honest, I really don’t like it very much. To repent means to admit that I was wrong—not, I made a mistake. I was WRONG. It’s like shooting an arrow through my eye just to type those words. I’m not big on being wrong. I’m really not big on the idea of admitting when I’m wrong. After all, we are all humans, right? What’s the point in stating the obvious? I’m not perfect. I’m going to do stupid things. I’m going to say stupid things. Let’s just accept it and move on. No futher admissions needed.

You’re probably reading this thinking the reciprocal, aren’t you? You’re thinking something like, “Well, Ryan, since we all know that we are not perfect then what’s the harm in admitting it when we are wrong?” The harm? I’ll tell you the harm. If I admit when I am wrong, I will lose face. People will see me differently. They may say things like, “no one is perfect,” but I know they are secretly saying, “wow! This guy is a loser!”

The truth is people probably don’t think that when I confess about something, but I sure feel like a loser. It’s humiliating. It’s an admission that I don’t always win in this game of life. But you know something, I don’t always win. I don’t always lose either. I am learning that I do struggle with some things more than I do other things. Like Paul, I have duplicitous desires that war within me. “I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do,” he wrote in his letter to the Romans (7:15). 

No, repenting is not fun. It’s humbling and filled with shame but it is still necessary. Think about it this way. It would be humbling to admit that I have a clogged artery. I would probably feel some shame for allowing my artery to get in such a state, but if I allowed my pride to keep it secret, it will end up killing me. On the other hand, if I admitted that I had a blockage in my heart skilled hands could remove it.

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. —1 John 1:9

That’s why we confess. So, He can remove the blockages in our hearts.

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